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  1. https://soundcloud.com/johanna-trainor-461007300/first-steps https://soundcloud.com/johanna-trainor-461007300/2a-1 @Jtrekkie That work?
  2. I have a couple more! So I started playing around with LMMS, which seems to be pretty cool... I made a couple of things with it's midi piano rolls. Have to say, it is alot easier for me to get consistent/synchronized tracks when i have the entire thing laidd out in front of me rather than improvising. Now a bit of disclaimer: These are more small bits of loops than anything else... Learned alot more by 2, looked up more about rhythm and beat.... Got bassline fairly synced up, but still basically placing notes by ear with a very rough scale guide and winging what few chords there are. @Jtrekkie
  3. My dad watched alien and predator with me as a kid, and recommended I read the Doors of Perception. And listened to the beatles. Turned out waaay weirder than I should have.
  4. That is sad, I always viewed Germany as a country of common sense liberalism. It seems most of the world these days leans away from that.
  5. Your art is like the best, literally. It's amazing. I'm sorry things seem slow, the only reason younger folks get ahead is probably because they proactively look for ways to.
  6. The only issue is anti-depressants give you more energy without dealing with suicidal thoughts. It's not that they make things worse. @Gator Just got back from a psych ward for like... the fourth time for depression and anxiety. Honestly if I had the medications which they now have given me I probably wouldn't have gotten that bad in the first place. If you are worried about your meds, look up user reviews online and your doc can advise shouls your worries continue.
  7. @Silo It is not wise to wish such fates even on those we hate. But your methods are weak, I would slowley excise and dissemble the nervous system with a scalpel and ice cold tweezers, then inject something into the blood stream like poison ivy or oak and watch as every part of their body begins to swell and burn, inside and out. Shunts could be inserted into the respitory system to maintain life while that happened. Don't forget intense psychological torture and peroids of complete darkness and silence in between operations. Being crazy makes me think of awful things, good thing I'm a nice person. Don't forget inserting small bits of metal shavings into all the major joints!
  8. So, basically for those of you that missed out on the angsty community feels thread, there was an idea suggested. By me. I probably read it before. The idea is to have a creative showcase of art, music, and poetry in several threads to show what defines our community. Ideally creative efforts by our creative people, since that would make sense to me atleast. So it seemed like a pretty popular suggestion between mods and users, and it is something that could be done monthly, biweekly, perhaps even weekly if deemed appropriate. I just wasn't seeing any more discussion on it, so discuss!
  9. The simplest way to keep your life exciting is to place yourself into situations and places where interesting things can reasonably occur. There is little potential for the unexpected inside of our normal routines. Also, try walking in shallow rivers for a few miles. Grab some swimming shoes and make a day of it, it's hella fun.
  10. So it's a good OS once you strip down every possible thing that comes with it by default?
  11. I had a truly strange dream last night, or rather several. I feel as though one I have had many many times before. It begins with horseplaying with three guys on a dirty river, who try to push a small rusty refrigerator towards me because of a (rather nasty) suprise inside it. There are rafts on the river, aswell as a great deal of debritis. I fall off the raft, and they don't help me get back on so I desperately swim to shore and away from the debritis covered area. I swim along a the river to a destination. There is always a stick floating in the water I can use to push myself away from the things underneath pushing at my legs. Sharp, slender things. Maybe tree branches but feels more like metal. I avoid the bubbles I see rising in an area, as if I know something is underneath. I go towards a grove, and once I get there there is a small doorway with a canine of some sorts. A curtain leads onwards to a sunny day outside but I see a window leading down to a cliff. I break it and let myself fall, fall. What comes next is... strange to say the least. I see a landscape that is like a house in the mountains, but it is like my mind sees the details but fills them with what I am familiar with. Everything is so green and lush. Next comes, I'm a little girl and I see a woman with a simple dress and light green cloth covering her upper body at a busy brown river. There are other children near her, they appear to be picking this green stalk with a bulb at the bottom. I am like maybe 6, I run up, eat some of the pickings, and talk. There are busy people working in simple rafts, other small children nearby, and what look like big tadpoles wadling through the shallows. We talk about maybe visiting relatives in kansas, about big apple trees and I look up at the trees near us. Huge jungle trees, overgrown, and talk about how we can climb these too just we would get bit. Then there is more hyper realistic, I enter a house, there is my... mother? Abuelos daughter in law? In the dream, a lighter skinned lady with dirty blond hair. We talk about... someone dying in a war in 1978, how he thought (freedom?) was worth dying for. I then talk to my abuelo in the dream, Savastano. His hair was old and gray/white, there were cataracts in his eyes. We talked about how he had been diagnosed with cancer, like I had gone to visit him once I heard the news. I think his house was the one with a view, one where I talked with the one who ended up dying in a war later. I think in the dream it was Savastanos son. I wake up, soon after. It was very weird, and at the river and the Abuelo's house it was hyper realistic. I think.... there was some kind of tv going at the time, about a cultural celebration where people shoot fireworks over a river. Weird weird dreams, oh and I pet a boar of some kind and it was real cute and only smelled slightly of carrion.
  12. You could alternatively just burn down the house.
  13. roast him with lemon and onions
  14. Sounds like it. They have a crazed murderer president fighting militant groups right in the city. Sounds like it couldn't be much worse, sadly.
  15. Uhhh, dying in my sleep because that would be the best thing right now? Not like I haven't come close, which gives really really trippy dreams when your brain is starved of oxygen. I'm hoping by the end of the week, but I don't really have much control over it. I mean, tbh my only achieveable goal is probably to do the dishes today or talk with close friends more than once a month? So much for wanting to become a jagabaya in silat, living in a tiny house, furthering my now rusty skills as hypnotist extradinaire, getting in shape, finding decent employment, or programming an RTS engine / game maker in Java. Dreams are pretty great until their corpses rot and fill your lungs with the stench of utter failure.