Attention whoring? I'll leave that up to you. The thread title says it all. I've got no beef with anyone, I don't hate anyone, but my psychotic nature makes me just rant and be pissed off and I give people who genuinely want to help me a good time and I alienate people. The other day I flipped my fucking lid and had to call a suicide hotline and now I'm on even heavier medication (anti-depressants and anti-psychotics) than before. But will medicine really help? I need to fucking stop. And say I'm sorry. I've apologized before but I feel like I can't do it enough. I disappoint constantly because I'm psychotic and a fucking bitch. I disappoint a lot so I don't blame anyone if they don't believe me and think I'll go back to my old ways. Maybe I will, I'm not sure. I feel like this weekend has been an eye-opener though. I'm toxic and destructive as fuck. I need to change and also demand change from the doctors who are helping me. Dunno what more I can say. sfhgkjfdhgkfdhg I'm an idiot. Sorry, guys.