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I don't think I can express enough how amazing I feel right now. I got a good long rest yesterday and woke up late, intending to study for a test I had this morning at 11:00. But instead, I was distracted for a good long while before I finally started studying. I didn't put a whole lot into studying, but I put enough in to realize that the test I was about to take wasn't going to be too difficult. Remembering some important formulas, I went in semi-prepared for the test. And when I came out, after turning in the test, I felt something I haven't felt in months. Pride. Pride, and even more importantly, joy. I felt good about myself. All these past months, I've been down in the dumps with nearly every assignment and every test making me feel terrible. I'd lost my sense of pride. I couldn't feel good about myself, and hated myself and how I've been doing. I'm pretty sure I even could have gone to the doctor and they would've told me I had clinical depression. Perhaps I still do. I felt terrible for months, with no desire to do anything. I slept a lot, feeling tired all the time. But that's changed. In this moment, I feel amazing. I don't even think I did all that great on the test. I just did good enough. Good enough to where I could still very well pass Calculus 2, one of the classes I've been having trouble in. One of the classes I've been failing. I took a test and I didn't do horribly. And knowing that, it filled me with pride and joy. I've been smiling ever since that test, and its been nearly 2 hours now. I've called my parents, burst out screaming with joy in my room, and was smiling everywhere I went today before finally coming back to my dorms. People who don't know me might've thought I was on drugs, lol with how absurdly happy I must look. I feel amazing. I felt such a surge of emotion I even got a slight headache, if that makes any sense. But I don't care about some mild headache. I feel better than I've ever felt in months, because for once I didn't totally screw up. I put effort into something, and while I probably should have studied more, I still studied and I came out feeling good about how I did. I feel fantastic. I feel great. I feel like I could do anything right now, and I have a sense of pride again!