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12 minutes ago, Xander Venterus said:

Heres another statistics page, its from my social network furrtrax, btw, it shows numbers not too far off those from Wikifur, and the survey is from 15,000 members.

https://furrtrax.com/indexsub.php?module=status

LOLZ

Total Windows Phone Members: 13
Total IPhone/IPad Members: 482
Total Android Members: 4781
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9 hours ago, Kinharia said:

 

Also. If you punch woman that makes the right kind of gays like you. Good gay men like it when you show complete disdain for the opposite sex.

Hotties like this!

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Also, I much prefer the sassy type over those. 

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I'm sorry for you. Never known someone like that before. But you can't change your sexual orientation deep in your heart. You can act like you did but you'd just lie to yourself. The only thing you actually CAN do is learning to accept it. That would be the therapy I'd spend my money for

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When it comes to identity, OP, your sexual orientation is only a small part of it. I get not wanting some facet of yourself that you're stuck with, but you shouldn't let it control you or your life. You're more than what you want to stick your penis into.

You also should really, really seek professional help. We aren't therapists here, and it sounds like you need one of those.

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8 minutes ago, Conker said:

When it comes to identity, OP, your sexual orientation is only a small part of it. I get not wanting some facet of yourself that you're stuck with, but you shouldn't let it control you or your life. You're more than what you want to stick your penis into.

You also should really, really seek professional help. We aren't therapists here, and it sounds like you need one of those.

This should be the first thing anyone posts when the weekly suicide threat thread is posted on the forum

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21 minutes ago, Conker said:

When it comes to identity, OP, your sexual orientation is only a small part of it. I get not wanting some facet of yourself that you're stuck with, but you shouldn't let it control you or your life. You're more than what you want to stick your penis into.

You also should really, really seek professional help. We aren't therapists here, and it sounds like you need one of those.

Might have something to do with his future relationships and spouse though. 

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3 hours ago, Butters said:

Might have something to do with his future relationships and spouse though. 

If he's got this much self loathing over his orientation, I don't foresee a spouse in his near future.

He's got way more problem to work on right now than finding a boyfriend.

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6 hours ago, Mr. Fox said:

Maybe in real life being gay is an issue for you but in the furry fandom you should be happy as fuck.

Oh God, don't even. Gay furries are just as bad if not worse than their non-fandom counterparts. They're even more sexual (yes, that's possible), even more awkward, just terrible people. The furries I befriend are usually straight or bi with female preference, or asexual. I cannot befriend most gay furries. I wish the fandom was mostly straight people- they're better people, usually.

6 hours ago, Saxon said:

Actually on this topic, most furries are gay to some degree so gay people must be disproportionately more likely to be furries. I wonder what proportion of gay people are furry. 

Let's hope not too many.

4 hours ago, Butters said:

Hotties like this!

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Also, I much prefer the sassy type over those. 

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Am I supposed to know who either of those are? Because I don't.

3 hours ago, #00Buck said:

This should be the first thing anyone posts when the weekly suicide threat thread is posted on the forum

I'm pro-choice for suicide, but that's another topic.

3 hours ago, Conker said:

When it comes to identity, OP, your sexual orientation is only a small part of it. I get not wanting some facet of yourself that you're stuck with, but you shouldn't let it control you or your life. You're more than what you want to stick your penis into.

You also should really, really seek professional help. We aren't therapists here, and it sounds like you need one of those.

Funny, I went to a new psychologist today. The bitch was insane and seemed like she was on several drugs that may not be legal. I had to abruptly leave the appointment because it was such a horrible experience, I got a bad stomach ache. She's literally crazy and demands I come back weekly even though I told her I could only afford 2 co-pays a month at most. I just have a really bad feeling about her. I'm gonna find another ASAP but I fucking hate the mental healthcare system and it allowed psychos like her to get a master's degree in this shit.

3 hours ago, Zeke said:

Eversleep, just post on your original count handle. it is not like we'll ban you here for being a lulzcow.

I'm not this person so stop claiming I am. I love how everyone wants me to be a gay troll named eversleep.

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2 minutes ago, ysodelicious said:

Funny, I went to a new psychologist today. The bitch was insane and seemed like she was on several drugs that may not be legal. I had to abruptly leave the appointment because it was such a horrible experience, I got a bad stomach ache. She's literally crazy and demands I come back weekly even though I told her I could only afford 2 co-pays a month at most. I just have a really bad feeling about her. I'm gonna find another ASAP but I fucking hate the mental healthcare system and it allowed psychos like her to get a master's degree in this shit.

I've done a bit of research into the mental health field for projects and such, and yeah, it's a shame how bad things can go.

But you have the right idea about it: Finding someone better. It's not abnormal to go through a few therapists until you find one that connects with you.

So you know, keep at it and in the mean time, try to focus your energies on more constructive stuff. this is kind of a laugh coming from me, since I'm shit at that, but eh, maybe you've got more will power.

Or you could do what I do every night and have a few shots of bourbon. That shit fixes everything. It's like duct tape but for emotions.

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9 minutes ago, ysodelicious said:

 

I'm not this person so stop claiming I am. I love how everyone wants me to be a gay troll named eversleep.

because you ARE everslep, and don't lie.

 

 

 

 

It doesn't matter if you are or not, but if you come here seeking advice do so openly.

 

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You say you don't like gay dudes, but have you tried bi or pan dudes? I know a bi and pan dude who are kind of into me, and both seem really cool. The pan dude seems likes hes straight as an arrow, he just happens to like boy butts, and the bi dude is a little flamboyant but still pretty cool. Hope therapy works out for you and you can find a therapist you like, self loathing is a horrible thing to live with.

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4 hours ago, ysodelicious said:

I wish the fandom was mostly straight people- they're better people, usually.

Oh okay, whoa there, that's a bit too far for me. I do NOT like that statement one bit. To make such a generalized statement saying that straight people are generally better than gay people? I mean, what the fuck dude? Seriously? You can't make statements like that because a person's sexuality has nothing to do with their nature of acting. Perhaps the shit they've been through will affect how kind/good/nice/whatever they are, but even then it's not a measuring stick by any means.

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4 hours ago, Conker said:

I've done a bit of research into the mental health field for projects and such, and yeah, it's a shame how bad things can go.

But you have the right idea about it: Finding someone better. It's not abnormal to go through a few therapists until you find one that connects with you.

So you know, keep at it and in the mean time, try to focus your energies on more constructive stuff. this is kind of a laugh coming from me, since I'm shit at that, but eh, maybe you've got more will power.

Or you could do what I do every night and have a few shots of bourbon. That shit fixes everything. It's like duct tape but for emotions.

Finally someone agrees on something with me lol. Yeah it's so annoying to look for therapists or any doctors for that matter. They don't make it easy. As for constructive stuff... pfft yeah right that won't happen. Only thing I'll construct is semen as I shame myself for cumming to male-on-male porn.

4 hours ago, MuttButt said:

Maybe you'd get along better with other gay people if you didn't spew hateful vitriol about them at every opportunity.

They spew tons of hate at me too. They did before I did.

3 hours ago, Vaer said:

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Sounds like my kinda party. ;3

3 hours ago, DevilishlyHandsome49 said:

You're making it really hard to have sympathy for you, OP...

What'd I do now?

3 hours ago, AshleyAshes said:

Zeke can see your IP dude, trying to con him won't work to well. O.o

Yeah, so he can see that I'm not the person he thinks I am.

1 hour ago, malibu said:

You say you don't like gay dudes, but have you tried bi or pan dudes? I know a bi and pan dude who are kind of into me, and both seem really cool. The pan dude seems likes hes straight as an arrow, he just happens to like boy butts, and the bi dude is a little flamboyant but still pretty cool. Hope therapy works out for you and you can find a therapist you like, self loathing is a horrible thing to live with.

I actually have. I was like you at first. I loved bi dudes. I thought they were great. But after they kept wronging me and being obnoxious, even moreso than the gay men (though in different ways), so I stopped with them too. Never really met a pan dude, so I can't say. I imagine them being similar though.

1 minute ago, GamingGal said:

Oh okay, whoa there, that's a bit too far for me. I do NOT like that statement one bit. To make such a generalized statement saying that straight people are generally better than gay people? I mean, what the fuck dude? Seriously? You can't make statements like that because a person's sexuality has nothing to do with their nature of acting. Perhaps the shit they've been through will affect how kind/good/nice/whatever they are, but even then it's not a measuring stick by any means.

I have older fur friends who were furry back in the 80's, 90s, and early 2000s, before the homo invasion. It was mostly straight people and was better. That's what they all tell me. Homosexual men ruin everything they touch. Leather used to be a biker and punk thing, now it's a fag thing. So did mohawks, dyed hair, etc. Rainbow stuff was hippy, now it's gay. They took over music. They just take everything and now it's hard to even act straight because very few things I like are considered straight.

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2 minutes ago, ysodelicious said:

I have older fur friends who were furry back in the 80's, 90s, and early 2000s, before the homo invasion. It was mostly straight people and was better. That's what they all tell me. Homosexual men ruin everything they touch. Leather used to be a biker and punk thing, now it's a fag thing. So did mohawks, dyed hair, etc. Rainbow stuff was hippy, now it's gay. They took over music. They just take everything and now it's hard to even act straight because very few things I like are considered straight.

Dude, gay people have always been around, just been closeted for most the time. It's not like we're popping up like daisies after the snow has melted or anything. Gay people have always been around, even way back in the ancient times, and everything has been going fine. And nothing "belongs" to any type of group. Groups just appropriate things in the moment and if it catches on it becomes a trend. That's all. Just do what you want and fuck what people think. Plaid has become a "lesbian" thing to wear but does that stop the straight girls from wearing it? Nope, because it doesn't "belong" to lesbians. It's just a pattern, just like the things you like are just things.

Also, please don't use the word fag as a negative thing. I find it rather offensive considering its origin.

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1 hour ago, GamingGal said:

Dude, gay people have always been around, just been closeted for most the time. It's not like we're popping up like daisies after the snow has melted or anything. Gay people have always been around, even way back in the ancient times, and everything has been going fine. And nothing "belongs" to any type of group. Groups just appropriate things in the moment and if it catches on it becomes a trend. That's all. Just do what you want and fuck what people think. Plaid has become a "lesbian" thing to wear but does that stop the straight girls from wearing it? Nope, because it doesn't "belong" to lesbians. It's just a pattern, just like the things you like are just things.

Also, please don't use the word fag as a negative thing. I find it rather offensive considering its origin.

It's funny, though, because "cultural appropriation" is bad when white "cis-hets" do it... why not when gays do it? Also, try being called that f-word all the time all throughout childhood, school, college, adulthood, and having no friends and no support because everything you like is what gay men like... yep, the same, obnoxious group that "invented" (or claims to have invented) sticking tongue into asshole. The group that spread HIV and has way too much sex. The group into the weirdest fetishes (I know some hets do this, but more homos do it and are proud of it... which explains why furries have weird fetishes). The group that has the worst personalities. The group with the most mental disorders.

I tried to "act straight" and I still am trying. It's very hard for me. My brain is defective, it doesn't want to accept heteroness into my life. And of course all the "Love yourself! You can't change!". That's not encouraging. It's insulting. It's like a caste system and they're keeping me in the lowest, trashiest caste.

Whatever. I love cis-hets, I wish to be one. #CisHetsDoItBetter

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21 hours ago, DevilishlyHandsome49 said:

I was getting that vibe too....

And for this being a serious problem for him, he sure hasn't answered for a while...

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Probs cause if it was a serious post all he got was "Lol get gay faggot, homo's ftw".

He was probably after....

 

 

...straight answers.

And on a serious note, yell, nice shitposting yall, GG.

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So youre seriously just making these threads for people to agree with you about how much therapists suck, how mean and awful gays are, how stereotypical everything is, how ugly you are, how sexual the gays are, how much STDs they have, and how straight people are better?

thats kind of pointless and youre legitimately crazy and warped in the head if you think any of those thoughts of self loathing and apathy are normal and are attempting to find some safe space to cry about it and get people to understand how awful everything is

 

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I would look myself in the mirror, trying to convince myself to be straight. Then I settled on bi. Then I settled on full-on gay. Then I went back to saying that I'm bi. Sexcuality is a weird thing, but I think it's better to accept it, looking back.

Probably not the answer you're looking for, OP, but it's something to take a seat in your personal  think tank with.

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6 minutes ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

So youre seriously just making these threads for people to agree with you about how much therapists suck, how mean and awful gays are, how stereotypical everything is, how ugly you are, how sexual the gays are, how much STDs they have, and how straight people are better?

thats kind of pointless and youre legitimately crazy and warped in the head if you think any of those thoughts of self loathing and apathy are normal and are attempting to find some safe space to cry about it and get people to understand how awful everything is

 

Okay, reading this after actually bothering to go in-depth beyond the first post, I'm just going to say fuck you to the OP. Why don't you make something of it instead of crying on a forum? If you have a therapist, you should be happy. No, not happy for your current life, but happy you can talk to a therapist to resolve your issues.

Fucking Hell, you have access to a therapist, a qualified therapist, and instead of following their advice and doing something to get better, you just sit back and complain? Ugh...

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This is pretty much the only thread/person I ever wanted to block in all my time here...and thats saying something 

Everyone gets a little down, self-degrading, and hopeless sometimes...but the last time I saw this level of hopelessness it frustrated me to no end. Especially when there's nothing I could do to help or change their mind, just, good lord! It just doesnt work to be nice to someone who's such an emotional leech it just doesnt have any effect. It's just legitimately self-abusive not to care that much.

Even Crystal didnt tick me off this much.

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35 minutes ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

how sexual the gays are

He kind of has a point, there. Have you seen gay people? It's like they've got a one-way ticket to bonetown.

35 minutes ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

youre legitimately crazy and warped in the head


Careful, now, this guy probably has legitimate mental illness. So don't a lot of people here. Emotional outbursts like this are par for the course for a lot of illnesses. We've already directed him somewhere else, and he has a current therapist, so the best thing we can do is just not encourage the behavior by paying attention to it.

There are people here I may 100% legitimately dislike, but I can't fault all of them if their issues aren't their fault. Mental illness is literally a disease. It's right there in the name! You might as well fault someone in a wheelchair for not putting in the effort to walk. It's not going to help anything.

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39 minutes ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Even Crystal didnt tick me off this much.

Crystal was alright, in my opinion. Whiny? Sure, but she brought hope and spirit to the community with her endless rants, making me smile in the darkness of my life as she went on and on about her boyfriend after boyfriend after BOYFRIEND.

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28 minutes ago, jcstinks said:


Careful, now, this guy probably has legitimate mental illness. So don't a lot of people here. Emotional outbursts like this are par for the course for a lot of illnesses. We've already directed him somewhere else, and he has a current therapist, so the best thing we can do is just not encourage the behavior by paying attention to it

Touche. I rescind most of the edge in my comment...clearly this person isnt well.

but alas, naught I can do about it but ignore it. 

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1 hour ago, Half-Note said:

I would look myself in the mirror, trying to convince myself to be straight. Then I settled on bi. Then I settled on full-on gay. Then I went back to saying that I'm bi. Sexcuality is a weird thing, but I think it's better to accept it, looking back.

Probably not the answer you're looking for, OP, but it's something to take a seat in your personal  think tank with.

From what I've learned from a bi guy I know irl they either feel more attracted to men or woman depending on certain times of the week, month or whatever. Either way they're bi and just go with the flow.

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9 hours ago, kizkool said:

It's funny, though, because "cultural appropriation" is bad when white "cis-hets" do it... why not when gays do it? Also, try being called that f-word all the time all throughout childhood, school, college, adulthood, and having no friends and no support because everything you like is what gay men like... yep, the same, obnoxious group that "invented" (or claims to have invented) sticking tongue into asshole. The group that spread HIV and has way too much sex. The group into the weirdest fetishes (I know some hets do this, but more homos do it and are proud of it... which explains why furries have weird fetishes). The group that has the worst personalities. The group with the most mental disorders.

I tried to "act straight" and I still am trying. It's very hard for me. My brain is defective, it doesn't want to accept heteroness into my life. And of course all the "Love yourself! You can't change!". That's not encouraging. It's insulting. It's like a caste system and they're keeping me in the lowest, trashiest caste.

Whatever. I love cis-hets, I wish to be one. #CisHetsDoItBetter

Well this bit certainly isn't true in my experience.  

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40 minutes ago, Kinharia said:

From what I've learned from a bi guy I know irl they either feel more attracted to men or woman depending on certain times of the week, month or whatever. Either way they're bi and just go with the flow.

I dunno, maybe? In my case I feel more attracted to guys, like 60-40 split, but each case varies, I believe.

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I'm convinced that dating is for masochists. It forces you to accept that, yes, you are a shallow person and yes, you're also not a complete moron. Everyone wants a mindreader for a partner - someone who knows the right thing to do at the right time in the right way. You want a million billion different things out of just one person and you end up settling for someone who maybe has...two. Of course you're not going to be happy with that. But you have to keep trying to find them. It's a lot like the lottery that way - you didn't succeed, here, put yourself on the line and try again. 

Straight people have it easier in society, but trust me, they're just as prone to make mistakes and be all kinds of degenerate and fucked up. Admittedly, you don't see that many straight porn actors with gaping anuses caused by trying to pleasure themselves with a cannon, but they still get into some fucked up shit. 

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8 hours ago, Mr. Fox said:

Proof pls.

If you have to ask for proof, then you weren't around for the eversleep posting days. You can always check back with the wayback machine if you're feeling bored.

Other than that, he spent a lot of time mucking up the forums with posts like these and people giving him legit advice; then he went on a tirade that gay people are dirty faggots.

Also, this user is also the other user that posted the previous thread about being attractive. 

EDIT: Actually... Here you go.

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