Feverish Posted February 1, 2017 Share Posted February 1, 2017 Again didn't know where to put this but I'm trans mtf. For a long time I've been depressed and hated myself for no good reason, until recently I started connecting dots. When I saw women I felt jealous of them but I didn't know for what, and when I put my face through Snapchat filters that made it look feminine I would be immeasurably happy but didn't know why. I've always thought I'd be happier being a woman but it was always shoved to the back of my mind, like the random thought of "it'd be nice to be a millionaire." 2 weeks ago I started seriously considering the thought and realized why I was so happy about the filters, and that I was jealous of women because they got to be women. Then I almost threw up. But 5 days ago I started identifying as a female, and the next morning every depressive thought was gone and I didn't want to hurt myself emotionally or physically. I felt actually happy and I still feel the same. So now I'm coming out and saying it. I can't do anything physically, if my family knew, I'd be disowned. Not until I move out of the house can I safely do anything physically. If you want to use female pronouns for me, that's great. If you don't, that's fine. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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