I'm not angry enough to lash out; especially with my fists. I'm not sad enough to cry and shed tears. I'm not happy enough to smile. Yet, I do it anyway. Smile...that is.
Is it so wrong to question if this world is still a beautiful place to be? Is it so wrong to ask for proof that this world is still worth living in? Is it so wrong to crave a release from all of this? Life has dealt hand after hand and I've played its game. I'm ready to fold; always ready. Yet....I continue. I ask myself, "Why?" "Why do you keep moving forward?" ... ... ... I'm always met with silence. A silence that gives me no sense of solace.
The Tug-of-War between advancing and avoidance, influences my behavior in intimate and business relationships as an emotional Cancer Moon is Intensified by its square to mental Mercury and aggressive Mars. I am caught between impulsive expression and the need to be safe. Additionally, beautiful Venus tensely opposes electric Uranus, raising the stakes on this basic dilemma. I desire the pleasures of intimacy but I'm not prepared to give up my freedom.
