VLZerda Posted September 30, 2015 Share Posted September 30, 2015 Before anyone starts anything, yes, life is unfair and I completely understand that, I just am at the end of my rope. (Also many run-on sentences can be expected)I hate that everything in my life seems to be in shambles. My 1 bedroom apartment has 2 adults and one toddler staying in it, but I'm the only adult paying the majority of the bills because the other is a friend who needed somewhere to go, and I have no money saved because I can't make enough at my job to save more than $5 a week. I keep trying and trying to go for commissions, but because I'm a sfw artist people don't seem to care about it. I have tried IG for a year and the two commissions I did make for someone I sold them for the price of one. I've been on FA and DA. Not to toot my own horn, but besides lack of backgrounds I know I have a decent grasp on anatomy and whatnot. I'm trying to get better at other species when it comes to anthro and feral, but I also kind of try to avoid same faced humans. I work and work and work and it's like getting nowhere.My mother had an emergency double bypass surgery 5 weeks ago, and for a good while she was raising my almost 4 yo son (as in I had little to no influence in his being raised, which was my choice) and I've now become the full time parent I've always been afraid to be, because I am not a kid friendly person, but at least I know I am trying. Just these few weeks I've gotten used to what I need to do for his health, even though my health mentally is draining. That bothers me as well. I know I need to be around people who are going to build me up, tell me they are proud of me on a daily basis, and I might even need to go back to medication. If I do I have to worry about remembering to take it, because if I slip up just once and forget my dose I royally screw up my system and turn zombie. With my job I cannot afford that. I am the backup they call when someone doesn't show up, or calls out, or needs something extra done. Yet I'm "not mature enough" to be considered a lead or a manager. I know how to work more areas in the store than the managers do. I know how to do some of the manager things, because I just watch people. I have been given more tasks to take on because they trust me, and I'm not the only one, but I could seriously screw them over by just walking out the door because when all the managers leave I basically get to be the manager. I put up with a lot in my job, and I finally had a talk with my GM about needing a raise, because currently I am making less than the newest people he hired, but I def do way more. Gosh I know that seems like I'm arrogant above, and I'm sorry, I'm just so fed up that at every turn I am sliding further down the rope and I can't seem to climb up. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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