Wrecker Posted September 4, 2016 Share Posted September 4, 2016 I'm a smoker, 13 years strong I guess. Fuck I'm dumb. But, this isn't about me, this is about my dad. He's already had a heart attack over the shit, it was pure luck he was around a major city when it happened, because if it happened the day before, he would have still been in the middle of butt-fuck nowhere on a fishing trip and he would have been dead for 2 years now. So, he's on a pile of pills daily yadda-yadda doctor said it was the fucking smoking that made it happen. He's 62 now. You know what scares the fuck out of me? The thought of losing a parent. We're a very tight-knit family, and we're hugely lucky for what we have, I couldn't imagine life without any of us around. He's fucking smoking again though, although not near as much as before, but I get to be the scapegoat for him to hide it from my mother because I'm around a lot and I always have smokes in my pocket. I've been finding packs of cigarettes hiding around in places around their house, so I know he's smoking when I'm not around too. I would imagine the first thought that would pop up is to tell him to fuck off and not give him a cigarette, which makes sense, but that's not the way it works. I almost wish that wasn't the way we rolled as a family unit for that reason, and though it's hard to explain, it just doesn't work that way. I guess the gist of it would be that everybody is their own entity, and if they're going to sink themselves into the ground, they'll have support right up until they start fucking around with other family members. Also, I would bet 10-1 that he's probably smoking more when I'm not around, because he knows damn well I'm not cool with it, and I'm sure he tapers it off a bit when I'm around. He is fucking smoking again, and I hate it. Like I said, that was the main thing the doctor told him to do, to stay way the fuck away from. Said doctor also said to get more exercise and drink less, but the opposite of those two are pretty well staples; that was the main point, though, no more smokes. I've thought about bringing my mother into this spiel, because she's the only reason he smokes as little as he does right now, but then she gets to stress out wondering what the fuck he's doing all the time and God knows my dad would be some kind of pissed when he would put 2 and 2 together and figure out I told her he's back on the shit. I just don't want the fucking guy to smoke, I want to have the both of them around until they're, well, at least way older than right now. How the fuck can I get a point across? That it really bothers me that he's chancing this shit with a stent in his heart and a smorg of pills to swallow every fucking day? I even asked him how much it hurt when he collapsed at the hotel he was at, what the fuck he thought, shit to try and bring him back to that day, and he recalls it like it was complete shit. Still not enough, I guess. Additionally, I would really like to know, what are the chances? After having a heart-attack, and smoking significantly less than he did before, does he have better chances of not having round 2 happen? He really isn't smoking anywhere near as much as he used to, just he still is. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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