Sidewalk Surfboard Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 Here I am, bitching again like the whiny little idiot I am. >inb4 "UGH SHUT UP SIDEWALK YOU'RE A TEENAGER YOU DON'T HAVE REAL PROBLEMS JUST GROW UP" I'm depressed right now. Why? I'm annoyed with myself. Again. Guess why. Just guess. That's right! My obsessiveness, and my own self loathing. I feel like I'm the most annoying person in the god damned world recently. I'm afraid to talk to people because I know I'm gonna bring up my obsession and I know they're gonna hate me. I don't hate my obsession. I really don't. It makes me happy. I just hate myself for talking about it so much. I'm childish and fucking retarded, I'm like a little autistic kid that never shuts the fuck up. I wouldn't be surprised if most of you hated me at this point. I'm a selfish, horrible teenage idiot who's obsessed with retarded shit. I'm not gonna kill myself or anything, I'm not fucking stupid, but I sure feel like I'm fucking unstable. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DevilishlyHandsome49 Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 Story of my life My self-esteem is ridiculously low so I worry about anything that comes out of my mouth or is typed out. My topics can be repetitive and seem old to me. here' the thing though; you're far from the most annoying person I've met in the world and on this forum. I dont even think you're annoying at all really. I mean think about it, if you were really the most annoying person on here, not many people would be interacting with you and its not like the members on here "fake" liking other people. We're pretty raw about our feelings towards each other here lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Toshabi Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 We asked 100 furries to name something- *BEEEEEEP* "ANIMAL PENIS!!" *100 points* 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Azu Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 You sound like me when I was your age Things should get better within the next few years or so Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Clove Darkwave Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 I think you need to realize that self-loathing, self-pity, and whatnot are indulgences that you should cease doing just as much as one should cease shooting heroin. I want you to watch the entire video I am about to post. When you are done, I want you to tell me what you learned from it: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vae Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 Honestly, I see you self-flagellate over your obsessions more than I see you actually talk about your obsessions. If you're honestly that worried about it (Not telling you to be. Rather, just if that's how you feel.), that's what private spaces and blogs and stuff are for. Like I talk about my koopa shit a lot on my Tumblr. But if someone goes there, and willingly sticks around, and then gets bothered by it, it's kind of their own fault, because that's my territory to do what I want with. I'm not shoving it in anyone else's face. So if you're worried about it, might be an option to seriously consider. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshot_Eyes Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 Just now, Sidewalk Surfboard said: Here I am, bitching again like the whiny little idiot I am. >inb4 "UGH SHUT UP SIDEWALK YOU'RE A TEENAGER YOU DON'T HAVE REAL PROBLEMS JUST GROW UP" I'm depressed right now. Why? I'm annoyed with myself. Again. Guess why. Just guess. That's right! My obsessiveness, and my own self loathing. I feel like I'm the most annoying person in the god damned world recently. I'm afraid to talk to people because I know I'm gonna bring up my obsession and I know they're gonna hate me. I don't hate my obsession. I really don't. It makes me happy. I just hate myself for talking about it so much. I'm childish and fucking retarded, I'm like a little autistic kid that never shuts the fuck up. I wouldn't be surprised if most of you hated me at this point. I'm a selfish, horrible teenage idiot who's obsessed with retarded shit. I'm not gonna kill myself or anything, I'm not fucking stupid, but I sure feel like I'm fucking unstable. It's okay man, your obsessions make you you. If you can't be passionate about the things you love, how would you attract people that would share that passion into your life? They'd never know someone like you exists, or that you only exists in their fantasies. You're annoying, I'm annoying. Everyone's gonna bug someone. You could be Jesus fucking Christ and you could piss someone off enough to execute you. You have the right to love yourself. If you didn't deserve to love your existence, you wouldn't exist. Also, your problems are always valid to your perspective. Just because I wouldn't be able to perceive any problems from this distance and this perspective doesn't mean they don't exist at ground zero of the Sidewalk Surfboard experience. It would be cruel to say that you shouldn't perceive any problem with the idea of being rejected by others because you're thinking about/talking about/or doing what you love. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Half-Note Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 12 minutes ago, Bloodshot_Eyes said: You could be Jesus fucking Christ and you could piss someone off enough to execute you. Jebus DID do that though. 0.0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshot_Eyes Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 (edited) Just now, Half-Note said: Jebus DID do that though. 0.0 I was using it as an example. People could think you're so amazing, and wonderful, and special, and everything, but not everyone will agree with that notion. It really doesn't matter who you are. People's opinions are people's opinions. Edited December 10, 2015 by Bloodshot_Eyes ' 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Half-Note Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 19 minutes ago, Bloodshot_Eyes said: I was using it as an example. People could think you're so amazing, and wonderful, and special, and everything, but not everyone will agree with that notion. It really doesn't matter who you are. People's opinions are people's opinions. I know you were. But alas, I have this irrational need to point out the obvious. Yay me! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissFleece Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 I love you sidewalk, and your hobbies don't annoy me. That's the honest to god truth too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dr. Doggo Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 (edited) Yeah, you sperge about fuzzy robots, so what. It's okay to have a pet interest. But if you think it's causing trouble or its isolating you a little, why not find something else outside of that to interest you? It's not like you have to say byebye to pizzabots or anything. Variety is the spice of life, so on and so forth. Also I get that you get anxious and panic and stuff, but I strongly recommend getting some alone time and quiet space to stomp it out a little. Then when you calm down a little you can decide then if there was an actual problem at all, and then discuss it later in a more mellow manner. Freaking out is not helpful to anything or anyone - especially since you're gonna realise how you freaked out and then beat yourself up over that, too. Edited December 10, 2015 by Sir Gibby 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brother Attallios Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 GUARDSMAN GIBSON IS CORRECT. AN IMPERIAL CITIZEN WOULD DO BEST TO EXPLORE THEIR VIRTUES AND LEARN WHAT THEY ARE CAPABLE OF IN THEIR SERVICE TO THE EMPEROR. AND MASTER THINE EMOTIONS, SEPARATE YOUR ACTIONS FROM THEM, LEST THOU FALL TO THE EMBRACE OF CHAOS. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted December 10, 2015 Share Posted December 10, 2015 I've been there too. All part of the natural learning process. The other guys gave you much better advice than I ever could Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gator Posted December 11, 2015 Share Posted December 11, 2015 in an ironic twist, you're obsessing over your own obsessiveness. chillax, make a tumblr, and go on liking what you like. maybe you'll outgrow it. maybe you'll become the god-president of the world's largest furry robot fanclub. who knows. and more importantly, who cares? 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Troj Posted December 11, 2015 Share Posted December 11, 2015 (edited) If it genuinely upsets you, then you might explore other hobbies and interests. If you're worried about what other people will think, well, then just find an outlet for that interest that doesn't involve people you're really worried about alienating or boring, and/or just acknowledge that you may end up annoying people as you pursue your interest. Well, and you know I like to beat my little gavel, but you sound like you could benefit from being able to talk about this stuff to a therapist. Edited December 11, 2015 by Troj Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vallium Posted December 11, 2015 Share Posted December 11, 2015 (edited) i think youre cool, sidewalk, and I dont mind your animatronic robots. In fact, I looked into them from time to time based on the videos you linked because I know its something you like and makes you happy, and I wanted to see what it was about to understand you a bit more.Even if Im never going to share the same level of enthusiasm as you do. Fun fact, theres tons of weirdos on this forum. Lopori is the primate-obsessed weirdo. Funky3000 is/was into macro junk. Vae has that weird koopa obsession like seriously its that ONE specific koopa. Dev has his fallout. Amiir has his bald alien animal people. I have my dumb fandom and animal obsessions. You're on a forum full of pasty dumb nerds obsessed with random junk in one niche or another, so youre in the right place. If anything the fact that youre aware it could potentionally annoy people if it's overdone is fair enough...so at this point just have fun with it. And if all else fails be as self deprecating about your shitty hobby as possible. Its the furfag way Edited December 11, 2015 by WolfNightV4X1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissFleece Posted December 11, 2015 Share Posted December 11, 2015 I really REALLY like Steven Universe. And Undertale. I'm basically tumblr, sidewalk. If anyone should be embarrassed it should be me. I actually have a tumblr, where I spend all day reblogging SJW bullshit and Steven Universe/Undertale comics. I listen to nothing but Undertale vocal covers right now. Guess what I talk about at class? Undertale. It's okay to be obsessive, as long as you notice that's what you're being, and try not to involve people who are obviously NOT interested. When I was your age I was super obsessed with Naruto, and I did NOT understand the last part of "not involving people who aren't interested" so I was a fun kid to hang out with, lol. Constantly talked about Gaara and how in this fanfic he was this that or the other and it was SUPER INTERESTING WHY AREN'T YOU INTERESTED. it's cool man. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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