Fantasma Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 being ignored again u.u I dont know I guess Im just not worth it anymore. Im just going to stop trying as hard, if people cant acknowledge me like they used to there's no reason I have to keep trying until they make an effort, I guess. Im just a sucker for loyalty and I would be patient with someone who had a reason not to discuss things with me.:(I hope they are just busy. On another topic... Slipping into old ruts.Since I realized I was trans I have finally known who I am, but being that woman is a bit of a journey. A few nights ago everything just.... Clicked. It felt right, I felt right, I was perfect.The next day I slipped back into something that used to be an old addiction, and it left me feeling stripped of everything I am and back very far in progress. I don't feel like me, I don't sound like me, I don't think like me. For days from now and god forbid weeks from now I will have to live feeling like a lie.... I have no other way, until happenchance or progress resumes it's light I'm left as a... Wasteful heap of flesh.Not the beautiful woman I know myself to be. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LazerMaster5 Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 My Fen has a cold because he lives in Texas and is not used to the cold. How is he gonna survive Ohio weather? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fantasma Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 My Fen has a cold because he lives in Texas and is not used to the cold. How is he gonna survive Ohio weather?But the cold stinks >.< Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LazerMaster5 Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 But the cold stinks >.<So does having clothes drenched in sweat. I don't know how long I would last in Texas. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshot_Eyes Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 I woke up to our cat Ika knocking over the glass of water on my nightstand. I had never been more pissed off at a cat... Since Ika's son pissed on my stuff. The fucker even tried to mark me after he got neutered and he learned that's great for a workout because he'll be runnin' for his goddamn life. You can't let cats get away with shit you don't like. They love pushing soft boundaries in an attempt to expand their freedoms and shit. They need to know, I have boundaries too ya' little shitdick. I'm nice because it's the nice thing to do, not because I won't get mean if you cross me. If it's on my nightstand, it's mine. If I covered it in an attempt to keep you out? it's mine. FUCK OFF! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fantasma Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 So does having clothes drenched in sweat. I don't know how long I would last in Texas. Sweating feels good! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LazerMaster5 Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 Sweating feels good!No it doesn't. My crotch and armpits get chafed as all hell, I smell awful, and the soggy clothes feel gross. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fantasma Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 No it doesn't. My crotch and armpits get chafed as all hell, I smell awful, and the soggy clothes feel gross. You have to learn the ways of the heat, young sweathopper. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hewge Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 Spouts of late night anxiety A+ + Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ginpanther Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 Well-paid people who are, apparently, so insecure in their lives they have to bash on the janitor and mailroom staff in order to reassure themselves of their own superiority. We all know I'm not above ripping on people but if your sole platform is that you hold a highly-skilled job and he doesn't, so he must be a complete moron and a disgusting slob, then fuck you. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mikazuki Marazhu Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 Spouts of late night anxiety A+ +Go see a shrink. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChaosCalix Posted November 30, 2015 Share Posted November 30, 2015 Well-paid people who are, apparently, so insecure in their lives they have to bash on the janitor and mailroom staff in order to reassure themselves of their own superiority. We all know I'm not above ripping on people but if your sole platform is that you hold a highly-skilled job and he doesn't, so he must be a complete moron and a disgusting slob, then fuck you.Well, if that's not ironic, I don't know what is. Also, the fact that there's a "Fen" on this forum >:CHalf of the people I talk to regularly call me that on Skype and it confuses the hell out of me when I read threads here >.>; Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FenrirDarkWolf Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 So does having clothes drenched in sweat. I don't know how long I would last in Texas. You don't get used to it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vaer Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 (edited) I hate the term "Make Love"/"Making Love"; or its transposition: "Lovemaking".You didn't make love, you had sex. The only thing you made was a mess. Edited December 1, 2015 by Vaer Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DrGravitas Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 I hate the term "Make Love"/"Making Love"; or its transposition: "Lovemaking".You didn't make love, you had sex. The only thing you made was a mess.If love can be boiled down to a chemical composition of the brain that endears a person to you, one might consider the flush of relationship-bonding chemicals (I forget which they are) that comes after sex as love that was made.Certain is a mess, one way or another, though :V 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vaer Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 If love can be boiled down to a chemical composition of the brain that endears a person to you, one might consider the flush of relationship-bonding chemicals (I forget which they are) that comes after sex as love that was made.Certain is a mess, one way or another, though :VOr, in the case of heterosexual relations and unsafe practices, a baby might have been made. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LazerMaster5 Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Well, if that's not ironic, I don't know what is. Also, the fact that there's a "Fen" on this forum >:CHalf of the people I talk to regularly call me that on Skype and it confuses the hell out of me when I read threads here >.>;But the only Fen here is my Fen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChaosCalix Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 But the only Fen here is my Fen. [Angry Fennec Noises] 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FenrirDarkWolf Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 (edited) Well, if that's not ironic, I don't know what is. Also, the fact that there's a "Fen" on this forum >:CHalf of the people I talk to regularly call me that on Skype and it confuses the hell out of me when I read threads here >.>;PARDON ME I WAS HERE FIRSt Edited December 1, 2015 by FenrirDarkWolf Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hewge Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Slept all day again. Whoops! If only I got to play games with friends at times that aren't ridiculous. Still worth it ! ! Go see a shrink.Naah. I know very well when and why I get anxiety at times! Nothing worth fussing over. Don't you worry about me, oh lovely pandaman ~ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mitha Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Stepping in dog shit at the end of your bed when you get up in the morning. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nordo Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Stepping in dog shit at the end of your bed when you get up in the morning. Me too. Thanks for cleaning it up while I pretended to be asleep ;o) 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sidewalk Surfboard Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Just when I thought I got a stupid song out of my head, it crawls right back in Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshot_Eyes Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 My body, my sexuality, and my life of course. ^^I want out, I wanna go home. Fuck this shit. I hate everyone. .... *whine*... FML Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grassfed Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 I hate these headaches I've been having lately, my lack of sleep probably isn't helping. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Revates Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 Not having money and having shitty 'friends'. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Azu Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 Absolutely hate having chronic headaches. Ugh. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Astrium Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 No offense to anyone, but I hate that all my friends from the old forums are in successful forum relationships and mine failed. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChaosCalix Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 Can't afford to go see a doctor despite some ... concerning things that've been happening lately, and I need to finally get this anxiety diagnosis over and done with so I can start dealing with this shit properly. Woo. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FenrirDarkWolf Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 I need to go and see a counsellor now about all my problems. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrazyTundraWolf Posted December 2, 2015 Share Posted December 2, 2015 I have mock exams for all my sciences today and Friday.... Yay....Atleast I don't have any other real science exams this year! Instead I have to...sit all nine over one week next year....fuck. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grassfed Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 These fucking mass shootings.Yes this shit is ridiculous. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sourdough Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 Money troubles. They always come out of nowhere to fuck up my day. So much for graduating, getting a job, and finally building a fucking life. It's always something. Oh well, at least the anti-depressants are doing their job. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vae Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 Someone who gives me panic attacks showed up on my Tumblr dash because they changed URLs and TS didn't block it anymore. That was fun to deal with.One of my closest friends gave a rather... odd confession of interest in me, that I didn't know how to respond to. I don't know what the point was in telling me. He knew what my answer would be. That ship already passed, and he didn't want on it. It's too late for me to go back on that now. Especially at this point in my life, when everything is a chaotic fucking mess and I don't even know who I am anymore.And then the boyfriend got in a huge fight with me because he threw cat vomit in the crack between the bed and the wall, and I made him pick it up, because that's not where it fucking goes. It goes in the toilet.December's already lining up for a strong inclusion on my shitlist. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sourdough Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 December's already lining up for a strong inclusion on my shitlist.I'd drink to that, if I could. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vae Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 I'd drink to that, if I could.I need to get some wine, so I can drink it out of my system.Tis the season. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Onnes Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 I'd drink to that, if I could.This is what flasks are for. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vallium Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 I need ~$400.00 ($500?) by December to fix my car since the check engine light is one. What's it called...the cylinder. :T I need it fixed since I plan on travel, total drag it went out so soon.I've got things to do, places to be, these stupid expenses are sucking me dry, mang...I was planning on working to build up my savings but that sure isn't happening, I'll just have to work with what I have.That means no eating out, no good food, just have to scrounge for scraps at home since I don't have time to cook. Oh yeah and also I'm dead with no motivation for schoolwork, so I'm gonna have to hide my subpar grades until I can leave and never return. Forging a new life sure is tough. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pignog Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 mondays!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sidewalk Surfboard Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 I was stuck on the bus for an extra 30 minutes with a screaming fucking brat of a child, and then people started to tell me I'm a bad person for getting mad about it. I'm a horrible fucking person, aren't I? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FenrirDarkWolf Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 Woke up late.Went to class late.Took a test.Probably failed. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshot_Eyes Posted December 3, 2015 Share Posted December 3, 2015 be asked for helpfelt bad about the assignment and declinedInstead I stated that the way she planned to do it would be easy enough for one personShe huffs offshe apparently completes the task with no complications She snidely yells down the hall "Thanks for your help"mfw Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sidewalk Surfboard Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 be asked for helpfelt bad about the assignment and declinedInstead I stated that the way she planned to do it would be easy enough for one personShe huffs offshe apparently completes the task with no complications She snidely yells down the hall "Thanks for your help"mfw mfw you have no fw Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bloodshot_Eyes Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 (edited) mfw you have no fw Mfw was my avatar...... but it was probably more like... Edited December 4, 2015 by Bloodshot_Eyes Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vae Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 I was stuck on the bus for an extra 30 minutes with a screaming fucking brat of a child, and then people started to tell me I'm a bad person for getting mad about it. I'm a horrible fucking person, aren't I?I think it's less the fact that you got mad about it, and more the fact that you wanted to "slap the shit out of" someone who could be acting out because of a mental illness,while simultaneously not caring that an illness may be at play, because it inconvenienced you. You seem to have a very black and white view of morality and the world around you. Which could very well be due to autism or any other number of things.But that's what people had an issue with.The extreme reaction towards a public inconvenience. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wolflich Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 I want to slap people all the time, but nothing happens to them if I don't do it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vae Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 I think we all get those urges, but I think it's more about publicizing it like "Hey guys amirite?"Like I have violent urges all the time.I just don't broadcast them, because I know they're wrong and I don't need justification for them. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spot Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 I was stuck on the bus for an extra 30 minutes with a screaming fucking brat of a child, and then people started to tell me I'm a bad person for getting mad about it. I'm a horrible fucking person, aren't I?Well, you are a part of this group soooo. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sidewalk Surfboard Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 I think it's less the fact that you got mad about it, and more the fact that you wanted to "slap the shit out of" someone who could be acting out because of a mental illness,while simultaneously not caring that an illness may be at play, because it inconvenienced you. You seem to have a very black and white view of morality and the world around you. Which could very well be due to autism or any other number of things.But that's what people had an issue with.The extreme reaction towards a public inconvenience.I know, I know, it's shitty of me to get like that over something like that, but noises like that give me a lot of anxiety. And you know what, I am a fucking shitty person, I need to stop trying to be good, because I'll never be able to fix it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wolflich Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 I think we all get those urges, but I think it's more about publicizing it like "Hey guys amirite?"Like I have violent urges all the time.I just don't broadcast them, because I know they're wrong and I don't need justification for them.Unless you're threatening the subject or inciting others to, it probably doesn't matter much if you express it or not. Some people just find it cathartic to talk about their feelings. Others not so much. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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