sinners The Confessional Box

[Kosha]

2 hours ago, Another Ampers& said:

*nyooms into thread*

ECO Virtual's Atmospheres 1 is often cited as the album that established the VHSwave genre, within the greater blanket of vapourwave. Another really rad album from this genre is Palm Haze by Miami Vice

Vapourwave is not so much a genre as a metagenre, a word used more to describe a collection of different sounds with similar philosophical origins. in the same way that "rock" encompasses sounds as diverse as classic rock, hard rock, alternative, shoe gaze, grunge, poprock

Within the blanket you'll find such genres as Vapour-Noise / Eco Jams (Eco Jams Vol. 1 by Chuck Persons / Oneohtrix Point Never, regarded as the seminal work of the entire vapourwave genre), Mallsoft (Hologram Plaza by Disconscious), Future Funk / Nu Disco (Hit Vibes by Saint Pepsi) and of course Classic Vapourwave (FLORAL SHOPPE by Macintosh Plus, which took heavy inspiration from Eco Jams to make what's regarded as the first true Vapourwave album, or at least what launched it into popularity)

I really recommend watching this video, as it explains the origins and different sounds within the vapourwave meta genre pretty well :3

(also if I can post a more personal link, my absolute most favourite is the Vapour-Chill album Birth of a New Day by 2814)

Thanks for sharing this with me.

I now honestly want to try and make a Vaporwave album.

[Kleric]

I used to be super judgy to stoners, because I am straight-edgier than thou. I don't mind anymore, and I can see them as completely normal hoomans now.

I still hate drunk people though. :V
 

[Jtrekkie]

7 hours ago, Hux said:

Kind of? I lost my job because I was as high as kite at work. That's not dumb, that's straight up retarded. I'm just a round peg trying to make it in a square peg's world.

I'm such a sexy mess.

You get half a point for showing up to work.

[Hux]

11 hours ago, Kleric said:

I used to be super judgy to stoners, because I am straight-edgier than thou. I don't mind anymore, and I can see them as completely normal hoomans now.

I still hate drunk people though. :V
 

I hate drunk people, too. We're not so different, you and I.

 

11 hours ago, Jtrekkie said:

You get half a point for showing up to work.

In my own defense, I was called in randomly on one of my off days because some dill pickle went on vacation without giving any notice to our supervisor. That had had never happened before, I wasn't supposed to be on call, and I only showed up in that condition because I thought it would at least be better than ditching work. I would've got fired if I didn't show up.

At least I was smiling when I was let go. My parting words were " damn, dude, damn. I'm high as fuck. Damn, dude. Oh, shit. I'm just trying to keep track of all these little purple monkeys."

Ugh. I'm a degenerate, but that's okay because I'm surrounded by furries.

OT: I desperately want to have the Big Lebowski's lifestyle, minus the alcohol.

[Socketosis]

When I was a kid, sometimes I pretended that the soda I was drinking was beer. Or that suckers were cigarettes.

I also used to think girls were attracted to bad boys like Vegeta.

[Tsuujou]

I hate this site on mobile...

[LazerMaster5]

When I was a kid I was quite religious. I sorta peaked in middle school and dropped off from there.

Now I can't even stand religion.

[FenrirDarkWolf]

I never once meant to post in this thread until I did it by accident.

I really, really hate confession threads after what happened the last time I posted in one.

On the subject of marijuana, I don't dislike the people unless they're the in your face types. But the substance itself makes me nervous and I hate talking about it because it makes me feel... empty almost.

[Jtrekkie]

For much of my short life I would not allow myself to be happy. With reason of course; there is always something to blame. I don't deserve happiness. It's an absurd concept I know, trying to pay debts by burning your wallet. But to have something on your wallet when you feel indebted is unpalatable, even if you also know the debt was settled elsewhere. And I digress. Maybe the petty nobility of self condemnation is nothing more than an excuse. Maybe I don't know how to be happy. Maybe I forgot. Maybe I can't. I am unable to tell.

 

 

Maybe we kids are simply insufferable.

[Hux]

28 minutes ago, Jtrekkie said:

For much of my short life I would not allow myself to be happy. With reason of course; there is always something to blame. I don't deserve happiness. It's an absurd concept I know, trying to pay debts by burning your wallet. But to have something on your wallet when you feel indebted is unpalatable, even if you also know the debt was settled elsewhere. And I digress. Maybe the petty nobility of self condemnation is nothing more than an excuse. Maybe I don't know how to be happy. Maybe I forgot. Maybe I can't. I am unable to tell.

 

 

Maybe we kids are simply insufferable.

You're scaring me, stranger. All you need is love. Both from yourself and another.

[Tsuujou]

On 8/16/2016 at 3:07 PM, Sidewalk Surfboard said:

Vaporwave is cool.

My favorite.

[Vallium]

7 hours ago, LazerMaster5 said:

When I was a kid I was quite religious. I sorta peaked in middle school and dropped off from there.

Now I can't even stand religion.

Trigger warning: Life story rant, advise you to skip right now:

I grew up predominantly in the church for pretty much all my life, so Im well known in all of the values and beliefs of it. 

Thing is...right at high school level things got weird when I started to learn about things that have been shamefully hidden, things only vaguely warned against as bad but I never quite understand. Homosexuality, sex, nudity, gender, etc. I was kept in the dark all my life, when I learned what these things were, on my own, with no prompting, I was inherently confused why they were considered 'bad'.

 

On top of that, most of my life I dont think I've ever had a real friend, I mean I had never developed my interests enough and had friends who shared the ones I had. My first real friendships were in high school.Especially when it came to church groups every Sunday in and out...these people were the most plastic, fake-smiles, fake-niceness. It's certainly not wrong to be nice, in fact a lot of religious people do that well...but, never had I had a genuine friendship or connection, just people looking at me with weird smiles but they never knew or cared for me. Towards the beginning of high school my anxiety peaked so I stopped going to Wednesday night groups, I have really bad memories of that...it moved on to me avoiding Sunday School classes. Looking back now that Im older it was weird as fuck going to girls-only classes, no wonder, I wasnt like them. Church girls are especially notorious for being extremely fitting of their static gender roles, and therefore were polar opposites to everything I could even comprehend...theyre minds were so different from mine. On another note, As a kid I got babysat for a week by an even more heavily Christian family, the kid would stare at me wide-eyed when I said 'heck'...I was a good kid that never cursed so I was incredibly confused when I had to be corrected by the kid not to use a substitute of a bad word.

Come college I moved away from home, I got sent to this expensive christian college, I was depressed that I wasnt good enough to get into a college of my choice, but I reluctantly accepted it because I at least got to live away from my parents, which stressed me out a lot in life (it proved successful because I got a lot of art done and did my own thing, choosing when to study and when to play). I tried to make the best of it, wanting to repeat my success of friendship in highschool in college. I also tried to rekindle some connection I was supposed to have with Christianity, I was supposed to have this powerful connection with it but I never felt that way, and I felt bad I never did. So I spent my time writing journals on my progress and trying to get closer to this. All along though I realized...joining two clubs (anime and medical), joining a bible group...I tried hard to make friends but my efforts waned over time. In the end these friends ended up just a plastic, it depressed the fuck out of me because I honestly did try to reach out and form relationships like that weird fluke in high school.

All along I tried to come to terms with faith and belief, but I couldnt quite understand why some of the most natural things in the world were condemned, it didnt make sense. One day in a bible group as they were reading they skipped over a passage stating that women were supposed to wear headdresses and cover their heads, the only response to wave it off and say "well that doesnt apply to us today". Red alarm in my head, "Why????" Why does that not apply but people who love each other are wrong? My sociology teacher skipped over the homosexuality section in our lesson by having students pulling out verses in the bible calling it wrongful. My biology teacher, bless him he was a cool man, but regarding the gender section his only defense was the story of David Reimer which, to me, actually only served to prove that you cant force someone to be a gender they arent...it's as fucked up as someone trying to force someone not to change their genitals if they dont feel well. Around that time my childhood icon Bill Nye got into a debate with a creationist, and the tension skewed a whole lot, it deflated my trust and I was so confused and didnt understand.

Eventually, the stress of having to avoid and ignore people that were supposed to be my friends got to me and eventually I returned home with the purpose of changing schools and seeking a job on the side, I was brutally adamant on this because for once I needed to take control of my life, not get sent off to a school that didnt help me in any way. This was successful because I regained my old, true of the true friendships in highschool when I saw them in college again, but failed in that the stress of living at home returned even worse again, especially when I began questioning things in myself, and I went to church every Sunday only to skip out and avoid it alltogether, I ended up hanging out in a half-woodsy, half-suburb kind of walking trail in the most peaceful way to spend a Sunday morning. My parents were very upset and tried to get church girls to text me and hang out and go to girls groups...it was the fakeness of my past being forced all over again.

In the end I relied heavily on new and old friendships, and of course these people were the literal opposites of everything I was taught to be right, I knew if it were all true these were the sort of people that lived a lifestyle that would drag them and me to hell...but...they were still very valuable, very real. All of these people were true to my heart, and I could talk of my innermost desires and the struggle of living at home, and they would understand and help me through it. 

 

I've never been afraid of death, hell, heaven, the afterlife. I dont do things which are supposed to be right because of a fear breathing down my neck. If I died I wish I did go to heaven, because I value a place of permanent rest and peace away from the evils and struggle here on Earth, a place to rest with an eternal good.

...in the end though, I cant leave everything thats real behind for something fake, just because they are  all for whatever reason wrong or bad. I do not do what I do for reward of heaven nor fear of hell, I do what I do because of a compassion and drive for life, and to imitate all that stands for a perfect world we dont have.

[Jtrekkie]

6 hours ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Trigger warning: Life story rant, advise you to skip right now:

 

I was told once that knowing or thinking a thing to be good or bad is inadequate. You need reasons.

I don't know if this makes sense, but do you see yourself as a person? or free agent? Not everyone does, some people feel like paper boats in the ocean. A thing that exists and experiences, but follows the currents as outside forces act upon it. You can of course ignore me if I say the wrong thing. 

[Guest]

6 hours ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

-snip-

Your upbringing has led you to become the person you are today but partially, because at the end of the day you chose yourself what to accept and what to deny, even if that meant going against the expectations of your acquaintances. I think that takes guts. We never spoke much but what I've seen is a fun, carefree, positive, beautiful person that I wish will be more lucky in the future. And if no luck will come your way, you're more than capable to make the most of whatever situation you find yourself in. You got into crappy situations and yet in the end you never let the circumstances bring you down and I really admire and respect that. And if I'm wrong and they sometimes did, well, you sure have a high threshold. You're tough, perhaps tougher than you may not think. And uh, hey, may I say you have great taste in porn? Them twinks tho lol

If I were there I'd hug you (because I fucking SUCK at comforting people verbally) but since that's not possible a drawing will have to do

Armors because MANLY

[Vallium]

6 hours ago, Jtrekkie said:

 

I feel like I have control of mylife rather than just waiting around for things to happen, so Im a person, not sure what youre getting at.

6 hours ago, Amiir said:

LY

That is legitimately awesomely cute and I am going to save that forever and post it somewhere, ahhhhh!

 

Ahem, well I think Ive confessed enough. I seem to be moping about as of late I think I might take a break to focus on present matters and quiet for a bit.

[Jtrekkie]

16 minutes ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

I feel like I have control of mylife rather than just waiting around for things to happen, so Im a person, not sure what youre getting at.

 

I thought I should say that people may pull you around, but you also pull them back. Paper boats do in fact stick together in the water.

 

Sorry, Val. Take care.

[LazerMaster5]

Don't worry, Val, I still think you are awesome. Maybe we should meet up someday.

Now, for an actual confession: 

I kinda like Pop figures. My favorite ones are the Zootopia and Rick and Morty ones I own.

I even got a couple figures today, Morty and one of the mystery Vault Boys you can get at Hot Topic. I got the Charisma Vault Boy.

[Guest]

7 hours ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Ahem, well I think Ive confessed enough. I seem to be moping about as of late I think I might take a break to focus on present matters and quiet for a bit.

I saw no moping. We all gotta vent every once in a while, ain't nothing bad about that

[Fantasma]

On 8/17/2016 at 9:04 AM, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Keep being sexy it can make up for it

So this is how people put up with me! Okay!

Confession, I freak the fuck out due to small things, today I was dehydrated so I withdrew inward and told people to go away because I will always be alone because everyone else is out there, behind a screen and beyond my flesh.

It was sillyness, thankfully people are used to it from me and don't get upset about it anymore.

 

 

 

Also, because why not, I have DID but it's just Wyvern and I. And the thing is, she hasn't been active lately - just focused on her own things....... and it makes me really sad because she is an amazing friend and I love it when she is around.

Also yeah she has an account here, only one post so far.

[Sidewalk Surfboard]

18 hours ago, LazerMaster5 said:

Don't worry, Val, I still think you are awesome. Maybe we should meet up someday.

Now, for an actual confession: 

I kinda like Pop figures. My favorite ones are the Zootopia and Rick and Morty ones I own.

I even got a couple figures today, Morty and one of the mystery Vault Boys you can get at Hot Topic. I got the Charisma Vault Boy.

I like Pop figures as long as they deviate from the standard mold.

[Chaosmasterdelta]

I sometimes get to clingy and annoy people by constantly bothering them

[Alexxx-Returns]

A big part of me is hoping my appeal to be let back into med school is rejected because of how much happier I am since I got kicked out. I'm able to get on with my life and be financially independent again, and I had such a terrible year there, if they did let me back in I don't know if I'd even choose to go back. Is that terrible?

[MuttButt]

3 hours ago, Alexxx-Returns said:

A big part of me is hoping my appeal to be let back into med school is rejected because of how much happier I am since I got kicked out. I'm able to get on with my life and be financially independent again, and I had such a terrible year there, if they did let me back in I don't know if I'd even choose to go back. Is that terrible?

Nah, I always feel the same way about school, especially since my summer job is pretty good money. That's just how the human brain is, of course your prefer the short term reward and instant grarification. You gotta recognize though that the reason you're putting up with the stress and the debt that comes with slogging through school is so that the rest of your life can be a little better, and so you can actually have a job that's cool and rewarding and helps people who are suffering. 

[Alexxx-Returns]

2 hours ago, MuttButt said:

Nah, I always feel the same way about school, especially since my summer job is pretty good money. That's just how the human brain is, of course your prefer the short term reward and instant grarification. You gotta recognize though that the reason you're putting up with the stress and the debt that comes with slogging through school is so that the rest of your life can be a little better, and so you can actually have a job that's cool and rewarding and helps people who are suffering. 

I'm gonna have a cool and rewarding job eventually (I hope) this way too, just the plan is to take a year out and work before going and doing the masters. Which will be infinitely easier than med school. I'm taking the easy way out, I know I am. Not that I had a choice on it though.

[SkyboundTerror]

I started college recently myself and I already miss staying at home and being lazy. I've also had a napping habit for years and I have to restrain myself from falling asleep in class. Doesn't help that some classes so far have been far from engaging.

[Alexxx-Returns]

1 hour ago, SkyboundTerror said:

I started college recently myself and I already miss staying at home and being lazy. I've also had a napping habit for years and I have to restrain myself from falling asleep in class. Doesn't help that some classes so far have been far from engaging.

Weird, I was at my laziest at uni and my most "together" when I was working.

Falling asleep in classes is entirely natural. Sit at the back of the room so the teachers don't notice and you'll be fine. I got caught once when I sat in the middle row.

[Socketosis]

1 hour ago, Alexxx-Returns said:

Weird, I was at my laziest at uni and my most "together" when I was working.

Falling asleep in classes is entirely natural. Sit at the back of the room so the teachers don't notice and you'll be fine. I got caught once when I sat in the middle row.

Or get a pair of these.

[DrGravitas]

14 hours ago, Alexxx-Returns said:

Weird, I was at my laziest at uni and my most "together" when I was working.

Falling asleep in classes is entirely natural. Sit at the back of the room so the teachers don't notice and you'll be fine. I got caught once when I sat in the middle row.

Just remember: You have your whole life to work.

[shadowsinhiding]

I've ran out of razors and i cant be assed to go to the shop to buy some...

now I've got a filthy neckbeard ;-;

[Endless/Nameless]

I don't know how to show my appreciation properly and I'm afraid so many things will eventually slip through my fingers. 

[DrGravitas]

My mind doesn't want to focus on work lately. I spent all too much of today daydreaming about stories I want to write, scenes I want to create, models or tools I want to develop, and pondering how much more distracted I might become were I to give in to my desire to install Skype on my phone.

[Socketosis]

43 minutes ago, DrGravitas said:

My mind doesn't want to focus on work lately. I spent all too much of today daydreaming about stories I want to write, scenes I want to create, models or tools I want to develop, and pondering how much more distracted I might become were I to give in to my desire to install Skype on my phone.

I feel your pain. Well, aside from the work part.

[Proper noun]

I like "edgy" music, I mean Evelyn Evelyn and Crywank a pretty good in my opinion...

[Vallium]

On Wednesday, August 24, 2016 at 7:28 PM, Proper noun said:

I like "edgy" music, I mean Evelyn Evelyn and Crywank a pretty good in my opinion...

Dont know those, but me too in the liking edgy music thing

 Crywank are a Manchester based anti-folk band. They mostly write sad songs and have been told they are the worst named band in the country

OMG LOL I take everything back thats the edgiest thing Ive ever heard!

Also, @Alexxx-Returns how'd you get "kicked out" of med school? Just curious. Sounds bad, but not really because regardless like you said you seem to be doing better for now, relief tends to do that when you can move on from a stressful situation and start fresh. 

[Alexxx-Returns]

4 hours ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Dont know those, but me too in the liking edgy music thing

 

OMG LOL I take everything back thats the edgiest thing Ive ever heard!

Also, @Alexxx-Returns how'd you get "kicked out" of med school? Just curious. Sounds bad, but not really because regardless like you said you seem to be doing better for now, relief tends to do that when you can move on from a stressful situation and start fresh. 

I failed my exams too badly to be given a second chance, basically. A combination of learning a completely new topic (all of medicine) from the ground up having not learned anything about it before (my biology education didn't help at all there) and the massive learning curve of the practical exams, which were also totally new.

Nothing bad like punching a lecturer or anything =P

[Vallium]

5 hours ago, Alexxx-Returns said:

I failed my exams too badly to be given a second chance, basically. A combination of learning a completely new topic (all of medicine) from the ground up having not learned anything about it before (my biology education didn't help at all there) and the massive learning curve of the practical exams, which were also totally new.

Nothing bad like punching a lecturer or anything =P

Shoulda punched the lecturer for failing you, what'd you have to lose?

[Saxon]

5 hours ago, Alexxx-Returns said:

I failed my exams too badly to be given a second chance, basically. A combination of learning a completely new topic (all of medicine) from the ground up having not learned anything about it before (my biology education didn't help at all there) and the massive learning curve of the practical exams, which were also totally new.

Nothing bad like punching a lecturer or anything =P

You got a first in your biology degree, didn't you? So I bet there are plenty of people who would love to snap you up for a job, and you might even find that it's much more rewarding and that you happen upon your true niche.

Good luck, Alexxx.

[Vallium]

1 hour ago, Saxon said:

You got a first in your biology degree, didn't you? So I bet there are plenty of people who would love to snap you up for a job, and you might even find that it's much more rewarding and that you happen upon your true niche.

Good luck, Alexxx.

Shit man, Id kill to not flunk out of a biology degree at the least, you dont have to be a doctor and you can do pretty much anything under the sun with that.

Researcher or lab technician or field or hospital worker. So many options...

[Alexxx-Returns]

1 hour ago, Saxon said:

You got a first in your biology degree, didn't you? So I bet there are plenty of people who would love to snap you up for a job, and you might even find that it's much more rewarding and that you happen upon your true niche.

Good luck, Alexxx.

Yeah that's probably why I'm not all that upset. That, and a lot of the med students were complete dickheads to me, it's sort of put me off being one of them =/

[Proper noun]

19 hours ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Dont know those, but me too in the liking edgy music thing

OMG LOL I take everything back thats the edgiest thing Ive ever heard!

Yeah, they are pretty edgy, but that's why i like them. They're so edgy it's ridiculous, it's hard not to like them.

[Jtrekkie]

I derive a great deal of pleasure informing my nephews that, yes, I have in fact met a werewolf, and he happens to be the most k-rad lycanthrope to ever grace the field of medicine. I hope he doesn't mind.

 

Thanks, furries. 

[DrDingo]

I think the T-shirts on TeeTurtle are proper adorable 

But I'm too self conscious to ever get one because I'm afraid of looking girly

[Vallium]

14 minutes ago, DrDingo said:

I think the T-shirts on TeeTurtle are proper adorable 

But I'm too self conscious to ever get one because I'm afraid of looking girly

Real men dont need to feel emasculated over dumb things like shirts if they're already secure in their masculinity.

People who are insecure in their masculinity need manly shampoo and manly Q tips

[DrDingo]

5 minutes ago, WolfNightV4X1 said:

Real men dont need to feel emasculated over dumb things like shirts if they're already secure in their masculinity.

People who are insecure in their masculinity need manly shampoo and manly Q tips

I'm not a manly guy. One wouldn't be incorrect to say I am a bit girly

But you know. I'm off to the sportiest Uni in the country and making friends is also important

[Osrik]

I have commissioned artwork of my fursona (feathersona? birdsona?) for the first time.

I have descended to a new level of furfagottry.
 

[Spot]

I take B Vitamin and indulge in my kinks for stress. 

[Alexxx-Returns]

I bought some horns a while back. I was really excited about getting them, and I'm still excited about wearing them. When I try them on in my room they look amazing on, but I haven't worn them yet because most of the time when I leave the house I go with my mum, and I look bad enough as it is to her, I know she wouldn't let me wear them. I wish I could not care, but my parents make me feel guilty for buying and wearing a lot of the stuff I get.

[Spot]

I can't stop laughing.

[PastryOfApathy]

Oh boy...

I've been getting into otherkin stuff lately due to a

certain someone, and I've honestly sort of fell in love with it. Like I'm unironically going full fucking tumblr and I hate myself for enjoying it so much.

Like a couple people started referring to me using certain retarded-sounding pronouns such as "rat/ratself" and for some inexplicable reason that makes me super happy and I started wishing that everyone would do it. Seriously every time someone starts calling me "rat" or something I genuinely start smiling uncontrollably and just want to hug them in a super not gay way..

It's weird as fuck, but I now feel more open, calm and generally "myself".

God I'm such a tremendous faggot.

[Fantasma]

 

@PastryOfApathy

Dear, I believe the best way to enjoy and experience it is to not take it too seriously and have fun with it..... as a certain someone does. Essentially keep sane because there *are* alot of crazy people and even in therians there are alot of cooks.

I've been a part of it for four years, including some spiritual aspects which I keep quiet and I have found to completely open with yourself and to go with what makes you feel good.

Meditation helps to maintain a clear head and do personal exploration.

 

On the topic of being as such, it is indeed relieving to be able to act these.... urges I have felt all my life, and I often do that through RP as it is simply describing what I feel at the time.

And yes referring to myself as coyote just..... feels good.

Coyoteself sounds stupid tho